Last month marked the
end of my cancer treatment. The real end. Though I had my last infusion of
Herceptin, a biological treatment (not technically chemo) around March of 2009,
I was still taking a pill for a total of about 5 years as continued protection
against recurrence of breast cancer.
The final shoe has
dropped.
Almost 4 years ago I
wrote a similar statement in a blog posting: “I feel like the other ‘shoe
dropped’, so to speak. When my oncologist told me about a month ago that he was
stopping further Herceptin treatments due to my weakened heart condition and
ordered my port-a-cath removed, there was an ominous sense of finality to his
words. No more doing anything intravenously for (or rather against) cancer. No
more infusions as protection against cancer recurrence, no more chemotherapy of
any kind. I am done. It was a little scary. Like taking away a security blanket
I didn’t realize I had.” (June 10, 2009)
Now I am absolutely,
totally finished with any fight against breast cancer recurrence in my body.
God has brought me this far. By grace. All by His grace and mercy.
Just like I don’t think
about the MG (muscle weakness) I live with, I don’t think much about cancer in relation to myself. When
I do, I ask God to continue to protect me from its return. Always that for one
who has had cancer.
Next month I see my
oncologist again after six months from my last check-up. So far all has
appeared well. No signs of cancer. After this next visit to the oncologist I
will see him, not in six months, but twelve.
Barefoot.
Walking by faith. Living
my life. Not dwelling on cancer or MG. Focusing on living, and loving the ones
around me. Loving life. Loving the Lord who has given me life. Giving back my
life to Him. Daily. Because that is all any of us ever has: Today.
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